Things that are important

[leeannhorne]

Do you ever find yourself in situations where you have lost sight of happiness or take for granted that nothing bad will ever happen to you? I think that life has a funny way of reminding you that you are not untoucheable.
I haven't had what one would call an easy life. From the age of 13 extremely bad things happened to me which I had no control over. By the time I was 15 I had made an attempt at ending my own life, not succeeding obviously. Only to find out I was pregnant, a hole 4 months already. The father wanted nothing to do with the hole "baby" thing and so I did it alone. I gave birth to a healthy baby boy, Liam, is what he said to me as I took my first look into my sons' eyes. I fell in love with him instantly.
I was later diagnosed with post natal depression.
I suffered the desease for 2 years before I was diagnosed.
I have since then told Liam how much I love him every day, read him stories and we have this thing where I say he's going to be my date for the day and then I get all dressed up and keep him home from school if it was during the week, and we'll go out for the day doing whatever we feel like doing. Sometimes we put on some linkoln park and play air guitar whilest jumping on the couches.
I do adore him so..
and there's no sacrifice I wouldn't make to protect him.

He started passing out at school about a month ago and since then it's happened 3 times where he just blacks out and falls over, not knowing what happened when he wakes up.
I think the worst feeling in the world is helplessness. He is going for tests on his heart and brain and it's all very frightning because it's not some kid whos hurting him. I'm so worried but I have to try to not look it.
Anyway, I wanted to share the things that are important to me so that you get to know me a little bit better.
I have some pics of Liam I'd like to share with you. He just turned 8 on the 8th of March this year.

[Telos]

Sad story. I truely hope everything's ok with your son. Since I don't have any kids I can't even imagine how you feel. Nice pics, seems like a good kid. Let us know how it turns out too. I don't know if there's anything we can do hear at Biorust but at least we can "listen" so don't hesitate to write if it helps even a little.

[ecntrc]

Hey
I hope that things get better with your son. I know how it is to feel paniced and worried about your son. I have a 2 year old and he has asthma. Not everyday type. Although everytime he gets sick, which is often, he is (was) on a machine for his breathing but Ive switched to an inhaler now. He hates it. Hes actually sick right now. A real bad ear infection. I know it dosent compare to what your going through but it makes you see that you should consider the important things. You are a very strong mother therefore your son is 10 times stronger because a strong mother makes a strong child. He will overcome this and I hope that it is not too serious. May be a lack of oxygen or something to do with his lungs? Not much sugar? Im not sure. But Im sure you will get to the bottom of it. Im actually will be going through a divorce soon, dont know how to do it but im going to do it. My mother told me it was selfish on the behalf of my son but ive been miserable with my husband for about 2 years. Just dont get along. I culd keep going but Im choosing not to because I just would like to be alone already. Ive lost creativity, writing abilitys and just the person I was. Before. Not saying it was my son, its my situation. When my son and me are home, and my husbands out to sea or something Im fine. But when hes here its like I want to leave.. but anyways, I hope things get better. Take care and god bless..

[sethcapitulo]

sad, so sad..really..my sincere sympathy...i wish you guys more courage...

am proud that the Biorust staff lets in things like these to help members unload and ease their minds and hearts....more power...!

this is the greatest website...

[bferree]

At the age of fourteen I contracted Lyme disease and it took them 25 years to find it. By the time they did, I had also developed numerous other autoimmune diseases as a result. Today I can barely walk because I have Osteonecrosis, which basically means the bones in my legs are dead.
I was married for fifteen years to a man who emotionally abused me. I finally left because the abuse was escalating. I discovered a loaded gun in his dresser and a friend told me he was bragging about how much easier it would be to kill me than divorce me.
11 years ago this next month my best friend died from complications of Lupus. I am writing her story because the very things she taught me as she was dying, I am now teaching others. I am currently experiencing the same degeneration of my physical body as she did.
Why am I sharing this? Well, you're not alone. I raised three kids as a single mother and was recently asked to write a book on successful single parenting. My children are on the honor roll, have outstanding characters and will be getting wonderful scholarships so they can attend college. You can do this and the best thing you will ever do for your children is to have made that decision NOT to stay in a relationship that was destroying your soul.
My oldest was born with high functioning Autism. When we had his IQ tested at age 4 we were told it was 75 and he would need to be institutionalized as an adult. Today he is 20, his IQ is 120 and he is holding a job. He's expecting to go on to college in the next year or so. All he needed was for someone to believe he could overcome his adversities with him.
I don't know why your son might be having seizures but I do know that even if they continue, he can adapt and learn to thrive despite them. I can tell he already has someone who firmly believes in him. I do hope they get to the bottom of the problem soon, though.
Well, I've rambled enough, lol. I'm sure I've told you all far more than you ever wanted to know but I do want you all to understand that I'm on your side and if you ever need someone on whom to unload, let me know. It's definitely a challenging time in your life and I know we can all use some support once in awhile.
Beth

[leeannhorne]

Thanx to you for your support and words of good faith. I believe that everything happens for a reason and no matter what we should always stay true to what is the right thing for you. People are always so quick to judge and critisise but they have no idea of the life you live or the road you've walked. Don't be afraid to take chances because no matter how scarey it looks, sometimes the scarey road turns out to be the best thing you could ever have done.
If it doesn't make you happy, what's the point?
Lee

[bferree]

Originally Posted by leeannhorne

Thanx to you for your support and words of good faith. I believe that everything happens for a reason and no matter what we should always stay true to what is the right thing for you. People are always so quick to judge and critisise but they have no idea of the life you live or the road you've walked. Don't be afraid to take chances because no matter how scarey it looks, sometimes the scarey road turns out to be the best thing you could ever have done.
If it doesn't make you happy, what's the point?
Lee

Exactly! Btw, I meant to tell you, you have a little cutie there. He looks as though he has a wonderful sense of humor, that will take him quite a ways.
Beth

[leeannhorne]

You have no idea how funny he is. I think he might be a stand up comedian one day. He's not shy, always the first one up when they ask for volenteers. He says he loves to make people laugh.

[<3Haert]

Hopefully by creating art and expressing yourself you can gain some perspective and ease your mind.

wish you the best.

[spermworm]

You have my sympathy. it must be really hard to have that happen to your son or daughter.

[Troskan]

Is a grey world, and you get more bad moment that good ones. Is a grey world, and tiranic countries like EEUU and other ****s all around at the same time that they say they are the "liberty defenders", and you must live in that hipocratic world.

But there are good things too, and you must take those things plenty, not matter your situation. I lost 3 uncles which dies from stomatch cancer, but they lives a good and plenty life, and never feels bad about his disease.

You have a hope, your son, just teach him to take the moment and lets it flow...