highschool

Posted 01-16-2009 at 06:11 PM by supertackyman

this week I found the website for my graduating class of high school. I read about all the people that I used to remember, saw how they turned out. I'm kinda feeling as left out as I did in school.
they all seem to have grown up and done things with their lives. (doctors, accountants, etc.) now I realize that I have done things with my life as well, that I'm a project engineer for a precast company, and I have had a hand in making or designing parts for almost every casino facade on the Vegas strip. (ooh I just made myself feel better)
It just seems like I always see other adults as "grownups" even though they are my own age. and somehow seeing the people who were my classmates all grown up, talking about all the good times that they had in school, made me realize what a total wallflower I was in school.

oh well, they're people too. they have their problems and worries, just like me. the only difference is that they hide it.

I have learned in my life that most of the people that I see as "better off than me" only have that house, or nice car or pasma tv or whatever because they carry a large debt. they have mortgages, and car payments, and credit card bills. It makes me feel better that I don't. I own everything that i have straight out. if I cant afford it, I just don't buy it until I can.
so anyhow, thanks for letting me get that off my chest. I feel better now.

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	I've been to a couple class reunions and most of my class are well beyond "grownup" they've fallen over the edge into "stick in the mud". They've grown old, complacent and boring. I never want to grow up.
	Posted 01-16-2009 at 08:56 PM by MoodsR4Cattle

I can totally relate to how you feel. Through out my formative years we traveled a lot, I did the 4th 5th 6th 7th 9th and 10th grades by correspondence. I also attended a total of 8 different schools in my life, never having enough time to take root in any one place. For a long time I felt sorry for myself. Although I put up a front as being self confident and cocky I would often look at people my own age and feel as though I was just a kid and the insecurities would eat away at my insides. Moving to Hawaii has proven to be both good and bad for me. I love living in the islands, scuba diving, surfing, the island life... However working over here has been devastating, three weeks ago I suffered a complete break down. I have been diagnosed with chronic Epstein Barr Virus syndrome. I quit work and went on disability. Medication isn't helping but I have been seeing a shrink and am learning a lot about myself. I have nothing to be ashamed of and so much to be grateful for. Like yourself I have money in the bank and owe nothing to no one. I have left a legacy of high rise skylines across the country. I have lived and worked in countries that most people only dream of. I am 50 years old and the other day I road my bicycle 110 miles in less than 5 hours. For too long I have let my job define me, I am slowly but surely pulling my stick out of the mud. Yes, I am on the road to recovery. I have decided to take three months vacation here in the islands and return to the mainland. I have told the company that I will only work 10 months of the year and no more, the rest is my time. I am going in search of Neverland because I never want to grow up either. I am sorry if this sounds like a bunch of scrambled ramblings, the medication makes it hard to stay on track sometimes. I am not in any condition to give advice right now, but I think that both of you have the right attitude. Be positive and stay young, and do more for yourself. I feel better now too, thank you.

Posted 01-17-2009 at 11:56 PM by kokopedal kokopedal is offline

WOW koko!
I hope you get better!
given your age and your accomplishments, not to mention your youthfull viality, It's about time that you started calling the shots a bit!
I can totally relate. all too often we let ourselves be defined by our work situation. mostly, we slowly allow our careers to chip away at our intrests and hobbies. not enough time for both.
if you need help finding neverland, you know where to find me. the best advice I can give for getting there is to cast away societys views of "norms" never be ashamed to act age inappropriate. the very people who look down at you and chastize, who say act your age, are really just jealous.
and if they arent, and they really mean it, F-em! youre having fun.

Posted 01-18-2009 at 06:47 PM by supertackyman supertackyman is online now

	Thank you my friend. I will be calling on you at times when I just need to talk to someone.
	Posted 01-18-2009 at 10:55 PM by kokopedal

	feel free koko. im merely a pm away.
	Posted 01-19-2009 at 03:37 PM by supertackyman